A past so deep haunts Jadesola. Sim runs in the shadows of who she thinks she is. The two sisters run the same path, yet never meet at any point- until the cross. Muddled Affairs shows that it is at the cross that every failure, every pain, every shame is taken away and replaced with a newness of heart. Some days, it is the ones we love that hurt us. What we do is to take it to the cross and leave it there.

Jadesola woke up that morning. She was so eager to see Lekan. He had just come back from the states and they had begun a secret affair online. They had started the relationship on Facebook and they would send nudes to each other on whatsapp. She knew it was wrong. At sixteen, she wasn’t even supposed to be in a relationship, talk less of sending nudes to a guy who was more like a family member. Her mum would kill her, considering the fact that her mum had low opinions on love and dating. Maybe because she and dad split up…

She had her bath, and all she could imagine was she in Lekan’s arms throughout the day, reading him a book and having lunch in his beautiful apartment. He was such a gentleman, and everything she wanted in a man. She got out and began to dress up when her mum walked into her room.

“I need you to stay home with Simi today”, she said, rather authoritatively.

“Mum, I am going out…”

“To where?”, mum asked, looking shocked that Jade could even think of going out .

“Lekan is back ma, I want to go and see him ma”, Jade replied as she wore her shoes. She was wearing a pink gown with blue frails all over.

“Hmmm. Jadesola, the idea of you going to a guy’s house alone doesn’t augur well with me…”

“I’ll be fine mum, I am grown”.

She carried her bag and left the room immediately. It was obvious that the relationship she had with her mum was faulty. They hardly saw eye to eye on any issue and they avoided each other like plagues. Maybe it was because Jadesola’s biological mum died while giving birth to her, and she somehow became her mum’s new first daughter when her dad remarried.

Jadesola walked briskly to the bus stop, as a bus approached her.

“Challenge!!!! Challenge”

She entered the bus and the bus continued to move.  All she could think of was Lekan. She remembered his words as clear as day.

‘You are my missing piece…”

“Awelewa. Your beauty strikes me like the thunder bolt of Greece”

“I cannot wait to hold you in my arms, finally”

“When I am with you, time ceases to pass”

‘No one else completes me like you do…’

‘When I think of you, joy fills my soul…’

And those words serenaded Jadesola’s thoughts as they approached his bus stop. She had a strange feeling that she should go back, but she yearned to see him. Besides, what is the harm in visiting a guy? He’s my boyfriend. Everyone does it.

She knocked on his door after spending fifteen minutes walking to his house from the bus stop. He opened the door and smiled so widely.

“Jade baby”

He took her in his arms and they kissed passionately as they entered the small house together. Her heart began to beat faster because somehow, she felt awkward kissing him, and she pulled him away slowly.

“What is it?” Lekan asked, as he removed his trousers. She got scared and carried her bag and wanted to leave, seeing Lekan seemed to be in the “mood”. He dragged her back violently, hurting her head as he brought her to himself. “Isn’t this what you want, Jade?”

“No…no”, Jade replied as tears began to fall from her eyes. “Not like this, please”, she whimpered as he pushed her on the chair. Because of her tiny frame he seemed to overpower her, she couldn’t even breathe.

“Lekan, you’re hurting me…please…allow me give it to you on a platter”, she said as he held her hands. His eyes were suddenly red, and it seemed like he had made up his mind to do this a long time ago.

“It’s too late”, he replied as removed her pant with such violence. Her gown was soaked in her tears. Her pride was being violated by a man she called “lover”. All of a sudden, she felt “naked and ashamed” as she felt his male organ touch her thighs.

Jade began to scream as she felt him inside her, pounding violently. Her body shook in fright as she couldn’t believe this was happening to her. The man she loved was hell bent on hurting her. As he continued to swerve around and gasp for breath, she cried silently. Somehow, words failed her. And worse still, no one could hear her scream. She felt…alone…again.

And she thought the worst had happened.

The worst hadn’t happened until she noticed that she missed her period for August.

She didn’t think it was such a big deal, until she didn’t see it in September. She got scared, considering the fact that she knew that there was a possibility that she was carrying Lekan’s violent seed in her. She stopped eating much. She decided to go to the family doctor for a test. And there. It was confirmed.

“You are what?”

Jadesola’s mum paced around the living room, not knowing what to make of Jadesola’s news. “Pregnant for who?” she asked.


“Ha… I warned you against that boy didn’t I? I heard he travelled back last week..”

‘God will punish you Lekan, and may everything you lay your hands on cease to prosper’, Jadesola muttered under her breath as she cried heavily.

“What do we do now, ehn Jade? School is to resume next week, and you can’t afford to start your university degree thinking of a baby oh”

Jadesola began to cry more as her mum dragged her close and hugged her.

“Hush , hush,” she replied. “It’s going to be alright”, she added. “We can do something about this”, she concluded as she dragged Jade up and hugged her closely.

The next day, her mum made her some swiss chocolate. “This will make you feel better dear, rest okay? Simi is with Aunty Bimpe”.

Jadesola drank the chocolate, and the next thing….she woke up feeling pains all over her abdomen. She was bleeding profusely and she saw the family doctor looking worried, frantically searching for something.

“My…my baby”, Jadesola whispered.

“Lanre, why is she still bleeding? You’ve removed the baby now…”

“There must have been an error somewhere, calm down so I can think”

As her pride was violently taken by the one she called” lover”, her baby was forcefully and subtly killed by the one she called “mother”.

And that was the very genesis of her bareness, because for some careless reason from the doctor, her womb got damaged. The doctor had his grandchildren while she….prayed for a miracle.



Written by; Oyinkansola Ige

I am sure it has been a great journey following this story, will there be a continuation? Do you think there should be? Let’s know what you think of the story, and a word to the author would be appreciated. 

Other stories by Oyinkansola

Shadows (Episodes 1-10)
Finding Me (Episode 1-9)

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Tolulope Oludapo is a young Christian who lends his voice through the media by sharing practical wisdom for everyday living in the most experiential and simplified fashion. This has fetched him the direct followership of over 30,000 users on his blog, A blog he founded. He loves to write on varying subjects that affect life, faith, relationship...everyday living.
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